I'm no longer interested in orbiting my mother's sun.

Other planets dance around her, but I am left in the shadows. I suppose you cannot possibly know what it is like to be a lonely dark planet, when you are a sun.

There’s a reason I’ve never written about my family on the internet. In almost a decade of blogging and writing publicly off-and-on I’ve said almost nothing about my parents. I know there’s a reason for that… it’s because if I was totally honest about the relationship I have with my parents, and they read it, it would hurt them. So I’m trying to protect them from the reality of how I feel.

I’m not going to write about them publicly. Not yet anyway. But I will share about it here, to my insider Substack circle. I think it’s really important that we talk about the things that are hard and painful. That’s a bit part of why I’m doing this after all.